Normally I am a jolly person, unaffected by anything else. But today is not any other day. Today is different. Today I feel my head is heavy. Feel like I have a lot to worry but when I try to figure out the things that are troubling me, nada.

Normally I am the unaffected guy, today I am taking offence.

Normally I am the peacemaker, today I am starting wars.

Normally I am the optimist, today I don’t care.

Normally I am calm, today I am angry.

Normally I am sweet, today I am rude.

Normally I am happy, today my mood is down.

Normally I am the one always ready to talk, today I am abruptly ending conversations.

Normally I would not need to write about what I feel, today I do.

Sure, everything has to pass, but the aftermath of this temporary change will haunt me. For better or worse, people have seen that I can choose to be a bad person, and all this time I chose not to. But I will not always have that choice.

So please don’t always try to find the limit, cause the only way is to cross it, and there is no coming back from there.

So sad that my first post had to be this. Now this blog really has an element of me.

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